Cantata no. 6 (Assistants of Assistants) in Varying Keys, Op. 25 for Three Electric Guitars, One Bass Guitar, One Drum Kit, One Tenor and Additional Voices Where Appropriate, by Shorthand Phonetics (2024)

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[3-4]its 430, lying in bedwondering what, you are doingi hope im proven wrongi send a text, you dont replyan all too common phenomenoni hope yr generally okworry i will always bewhen you break down, consistentlyi hope im right all alongand then i hear, through the grapevinethat you are not truly fineanxiety, builds up in my mind thats it im coming overchecking up on youi hope you dont mindi hope you dont mindthat i care about you very muchits killing me to see you this wayto find that all my worries were warrantedyou say "you feel disturbed"but yr not exactly telling me to get outto get outknock on yr door, you open ityou say yr fine, but i can sense not reallyyr not fooling mei ask what's up, you replyoh my god, its worse than i thoughtim not proven wrongthis is why i came overchecking up on youi feel it in my guti feel it in my gut cozi know you dont want to hear this, its annoyingbut i've been on the other side, and you wont survive if you dontstart reaching out, to anyone you knowlike me, like me, like me, like me in front of you right now[literary bibliography]3. Leiberman, Mark. "Friendly Friend Friendly." Language Log. 20 July 2011. Web. 27 July 2011. <http://languagelog.ldc.upenn.edu/nll/?p=3286#more-3286>.4. Marciuliano, Francesco and Craig Macintosh. "Sally Forth." Comic strip. Seattle Times [Seattle] 19 July 2011. Print.

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[5]where am i nowstopped paying attentiongoing, go, gonemy apprehentionempty i feelbut whats so bad about thatwhats so bad about thatyou should just look aroundand realized we have wonthe lotteryyou should just look aroundand realized we have wonalreadywhat are you thinkingwhatever it's too muchjust come with mecmon it's just lunchso what if you feel emptyfullness ain't a prerequisiteto indulge in conversationwhats so bad about thateven if its trueyou should just look aroundand realized we have wonthe lotteryyou should just look aroundand realized we have wonalreadywhy are you still fussing around?what are you waiting for?an epiphany?well its nt gonna come if youstill think yr worthlessyr notrealizethat we are luckyrealizelife can be its ownrewardlook at your four wallsand seeits not that bad of a life---------------------------------------[literary bibliography]5. Charlie Sheen: Watch the Full '20/20' Interview. Prod. Roone Arledge. Perf. Charlie Sheen and Andrea Canning. Abcnews.com. 26 Feb. 2011. Web. 09 July 2011. <http://abcnews.go.com/Entertainment/charlie-sheen-interview-special-edition-2020/story?id=13008140>.

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[6]“You will be giants in the land.”Yet we did not believe.So as we passed our peers in heightour hearts started to freak.We quickly found that extra heightis a burden not easily borneWe can not fit in human homesyet see over their heads.“Cut me off at the knees,” some cry“And then I’ll be like you!”Others stop their growingAnd from then on, just make doBut what of those who keep on growing?Where do they call home?Their footsteps fill the world but Istill don’t know where they’re going.It’s not easy for men to knowthat giant hearts to tick tooAnd as our man friends dwindleOur use for height does tooAnd I am at the trailhead.I see wanderers aheadThose who beg on crippled legsand ignorers behindbut i dont careI will grow strong and mightybut mostly go aloneDoes being what we’re meant to bereplace the yearn for home?i dont think sothis is the sacrificei have gone throughi can never return to where you arejust come with methe "cut off yr knees" is just a metaphorits easily recoverableeasily regenerablejust come with me------------------------------------------------------------[literary bibliography]6. Kang, Jay C., and Bill Barnwell. "A Man Alone: Dirk vs. the Heat." Grantland.com. ESPN, 9 June 2011. Web. 9 June 2011. <http://www.grantland.com/story/_/id/6642375/dirk-vs-heat>.

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[7]she sat me downin lieu of plansof rendevouz with youexpressed concernsof my interest in loving you"what is your deal, you crazy man?is it obsession or true love as we know it?""i dont know sister of my lovecan you tell me?what this is?coz im too far in it to knowanymore, why are you asking?why are you asking?"so she told methat you cried just recentlyover menow i feel badbut all i can say to herwas how i felt, selfishly"trust that my intentions are pure as i knowi dont to hurt her in any way or capacity?""well i dont know hanabishi-kunwhat to do eitheri love my sister too more so than youi would imagine, i would imagine""that this is all just something that is not appropriate nowdont push a square peg to a round holei know you love her and i believe that you want to helpbut i want you to leave her aloneshe needs her space, like she always hasshe needs to figure this out on her owndo what she will, i will always be with her whatever happens dont you worryoh my god yr not listening, i guess what love'll do to you...hanabishi-kun! hanabishi-kun!""oh i blanked out there for a whileim sorry what were you saying just now?""just that this love comes with many risks as you knowi know yr really deaf, just get this through your head""that i dont know what'll happentween the two of you, that is up to youbut know that sometimes intentions arent enoughi would know""thank you, thank you, fujioka-san""no that wasnt a exactly blessing you idiot."----------------------------------------[lterary bibliography]7. Reed, Adam. "Training Day." Archer. Prod. Matt Thompson. FX. FX, 14 Jan. 2010. Television.

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[fulltitle: "Anyone Can Play Guitar 2: The Fan Sequel (Just Wanna Play Portal 2 With You, or, "So There's This French [...] Well French Iranian Cartoon Called "Persepolis" About Growing Up in Iran During the Iranian Revolution or Whatever... It's Fun! You'll Like It!"), or, "Any state that passes a bill that tries to regulate video games based on content is just asking to pay my legal fees..." - Paul Smith"][8][9][10][11]Tsubasa, come out and playLets play our games all dayforget about the perils in our mindslets see how much joy we can findwell this ones adverserialAnd this one is co-opoh what's the experience todayyou wont know if you dont come out and playoh What have you got to loseexcept time alone to be depressedcome out and feel something elsesomething morecmon, just listen to my wordsits not really that absurdyou'll feel better if you'd just let goany notion of total controllets do whatever you wantyour wish is my commandyou owe yourself to lighten upmight seem hard, but its really notoh What have you got to loseexcept time alone to be depressedcome out and feel something elsesomething less crushing, less depressingwe're gonna hang out, have fun, and forgetwe're gonna hang out, have fun, fun forgetbout life, release tensions in conversation, weve done this before, so you know how it goesi know yr in there, i just heard you fumble about! you just turned off your lights right therrecmon come out, come ou--oh whats the bloody point?f*ck me its raining...------------------------------------------[lterary bibliography]8. Yorke, Thom, Jonny Greenwood, Colin Greenwood, Ed O'Brien, and Phil Selway. Anyone Can Play Guitar. Radiohead. Rec. Autumn 1992. Sean Slade and Paul Q. Kolderie, 1993. MP3.9. Wolpaw, Erik, Jay Pinkerton, and Chet Faliszek. Portal 2. Producer Gabe Newell. 18 Apr. 2011. Video Game. Valve Corporation, Bellevue, WA.10. Persepolis. Dir. Vincent Paronnaud and Marjane Satrapi. Perf. Chiara Mastroianni, Catherine Deneuve and Gena Rowlands. 2.4.7. Films, 2007. DVD.11. Grant, Christopher. "Victory Lap: ESA Responds to Supreme Court Decision." Joystiq.com. AOL Inc., 27 June 2011. Web. 27 June 2011. <http://www.joystiq.com/2011/06/27/victory-lap-esa-responds-to-supreme-court-decision/>.

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Oh to talk, how we love to talkbout anyone and anything we can think ofbetter if maliciousand feel good at third party's expenseits instant, its satisfying, its wronga vicious circlethe world is made for people who arent cursedwith selfawareness[12] like meand im awarepainfully aware, it isme and my stupid idealsits pretty clear they're pretty uniqueand not in a good waya sociable way, or even a way that makes me contentit* just discomfort, perpetual discomfortand an awkward sense that i just dont belongwhich makes someone like youseem bright to me, inappropriately soif your insecurities are to be believedthe world is not made for people who doubt themsleveslike we doand we dodoubt ourselves coz it isus and our stupid idealsits pretty clear they're pretty uniqueand not in a good waya sociable way, or even a way that makes uscontentwhy do i insistin loving the unloveablewhy do you insiston feeling unlovedit stems from the same placea place of kindnessbut i'd rather be evilthan feel this torturedi know you feel the sameyouve said so many times beforeand just as frequent you deny yrself pleasurehave i done the same?the world is made for people who arent cursedwith self-awareness as deeply asus and our stupid idealsits pretty clear they're pretty uniqueand not in a good waya sociable way, or even a way that makes us contentto live with our ownselveslike a normal person wouldi just thought of something new just nowwhat if we could just be ourselvesand not give a f*ck?well we'd be content then, wouldnt we?----------------------------------------[lterary bibliography]12. Bull Durham. Dir. Ron Shelton. Perf. Kevin Costner, Susan Sarandon and Tim Robbins. Orion Pictures, 1988. DVD.

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[13]Cigars and whiskey and poker and broslate night conversations, smoke in my nosetonight I keep together, ignore “no place home”my gut will sober, but my life stays stonedI feel at least twelve pieces are within my soulthis and that and you and we and all our hopes.Bros celebrate your “we” to come, and we all know:“When my cards come together, you will crash at my home.”In two days we’ll stand with and we will all feel weirdYou in joy and us for what? we still don’t knowYou’ve forced us to be honest; we can’t bluff or fold:“My faith can’t move a mountain; I’ve got no wife to show.”Wedding vows are funny things, they are not your ownThose married think on “what we’ve done” while singles fuss and woe.“Is it something that I’ve done? Or something I must be?”In dread, in hope, in fear, in lust, we bet; the Dealer seesCigars and whiskey and poker and broslegal and in moderation, safety: couch and floortoday I keep together, head out to the show.There’s no time for thinking. It’s logistics. Here we go.butunder thattoday I keep together, ignore “no place home”my gut will sober, but my life stays stoned----------------------------------------------[lterary bibliography]13. "Song Structure (popular Music)." Wikipedia, the Free Encyclopedia. Web. 15 Aug. 2011. <http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Song_structure_(popular_music)>.

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[14]My fire will be eternal: should yours not die outNo matter all this ice between us, or your sense of doubtthis inferno of ours will heal us should it catchit will nourish me, ressurect you, so breathe long, breath deep Immortal we will be, laying content upon the pyreForever warm, enamoredAs our world explodes!Ok that's all i got im not much of a poetand this is not much of a poembut what else am i to do?as all my advances have been twarted by youi am reduced to these feeble attempts at free versetry as I might, you favor me a fool, 'but its hard to bear your heart and soul, and still be seen as cool, but i dont carewell not anymore anywaymy shroud is ash, you have set it ablazeive got nothing left but me, myself and Iand my hellish intentionsthat you fear like the devil incarnate himselfits random screaming time!and its gonna be awesome!sonething something and you will seei dont know what to say anymorenothing is working at all manyknow? yeah yeahi have no direction in my lifei dont know what im doing anymore manim kinda drunk right nowits kinda like ugghi dont know what you want anymoreyou dont want anything from me obviouslyim willing to do anything for youwithin reasonive done soapwhat more could you ask of me coz i dunnoremember that time when i came to yr placeand you said you were ok but you were not oknot ok at all, remember thati came and i cared and you tell mei dunno i love youi love you so much[incoherent]yeahi dunno anymore manso hiiii-iighhigh...so hiighand it is awesomeyou should try thisit cures depressionyou should try this out coz it cures depressioni does, it really doesi was like really depressed before...now...im still really depressedbut ive gained an understanding...on lifeoh man that was the mic is not really working so welli dont know why am i recording thiswhat am i doingi dunnoi wish you could be a different personbut if you were a different person then you would be a different personand you wouldnt be the one i am in love withit is fabolousnot really thoand this is..."i am not on drugs, not on drugs man"drugs are badjust say nodrugs are bad and just say nowhy am i rapping in the middle of this songim not even a good rapperso kill mekill my assand i will be finedont kill yrself coz you wont be fineno! dont kill your self coz you will be fineyou will be fine. you will be fine. you will be fineyou will be fine. you will be fine. you will be fineyou will be fineas long as...you have to open upyou will be fine if you open upid be great if i was with you,but thats not a priority...right now!i know thats not a priority right nowi knowjust please be ok, just be okjust please be ok.---------------------------------------------[literary biography]14. Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. Dir. Edgar Wright. By Bryan L. O'Malley. Perf. Michael Cera, Mary Elizabeth Winstead and Kieran Culkin. Universal, 2010. DVD.

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[15]Disapointmentdisappointed all the timeits the risk i taketrying to makesomething outta nothingall you end up with is nothingi dont know why i tryi dont know whythere is this primal instinct insideit always takes overno matter how i try an push it backthis is how the lord made meand i know wishing for changewill not change memight as well stew in this celltill someone comes for meregretall the things i've donefor some reasoncant do any goodwhat is wrong with mecan you tell mei dont know why i aski dont know whywhy do i do the things i do?why does the world looks a certain way?why do i care about what i care aboutwhy do i need this sung alouddoes anything matter at all?does this song matter at all?for its just an expression of-------------------------------------------------[literary bibliography]15. Harrison, Reid. "The Other Cousin." Drawn Together. Dir. Peter Avanzino. Comedy Central. New York City, New York, 1 Dec. 2004. Television.

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[pt. 1: Hey, I Love You]the say the road to hellis paved with the best of intentions[16]makes me wonderswhich degree burns am in forif i continue being who i amto you the woman i choose to loveunaccepting as you arearms length you keep meon the edge of limboready to pushme overwhy do you do this?are you scared?that i'll inadvertantlypull you intake the riskit'll be worth iti am not makinganything up when i say dobelieve in youmy faith is so strongdare i say it rivals my faith ingod Himselffor he, created me and you and this circ*mstancebut stillarms length you keep meon the edge of limboready to pushme overwhy do you do this?are you scared?that i'll inadvertantlypull you in anywaytake the riskit'll be worth itjust take the riskit'll be worth it[pt. 2: What Else Is New (Reprise)]You are a coalBurning fire, burning soulNot black from dirt, but being.Admit you do, you've still come through.Yet cessation still sounds freeing.Gentle assurances from ones you love.Grant you virility to push forwardThough you may be challengedPressure from all sidesYou have put up with the torment.Accept your strength,Embrace the pressure, break every last confinement.At your best, you are hard pressed,but then can you can be a diamond.pt. 3: In My Dreams, You Wanted Pictures of our Projected Future [A. Ashari]and so our lives continueon the whim of our chemistrieswill it lead to more doomor maybe we make it out alivei hope its the lattercoz no one wants to die brokeof contentment, but how can we achieve that?if you dont seize every oppurtunityto make yourself happyi should listen to my own adviceapparently that’s what i need right nowbut you oh youi love you and i would give anythingfor god knows what nowbut ill settle todayto tell you this weird thingin my dreams you said you wanted pictures of our projected future and this is the best i can do-----------------------------------------------------------[literary bibliography]16. "the road to hell is paved with good intentions", Proverbs, Infobase Publishing, 2007, p. 234, ISBN 9780816066735

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